...dissapointed at myself...

Man, do i feel angry and ashamed at myself....i did smething to someone which i totally regret now...because of what i did, i feel like i've lost that someone somehow...i'm feeling really bad and really hope that that someone wil find the heart to forgive me. i pray that you will....
i was suppose to go down on sunday by bus with my uncle...but after reading about all the bus accidents happening lately...it was abit scary thinkng about going down by bus...at first i din want to and told my mum that i'l go down on tues with a fren...and my uncle will go down himself on sun....but mum said that i shouldn't waste her money and the ticket...so i had no choice but thank goodness that my uncle changes his mind and decided to follow his fren down on sun...and so now i have to go down on tues....by CAR....so i feel safer...now..heheh....
cChristmas is over now...and i guess everything is back to normal....i can say that i had a good one this year...celebrating it with my family and frens.....eat like a pig...gained some weight...but hopefully my eatinghabits will beback tonormal and so will my size.haah....
beenfeeling pretty down lately....lonely....sad...and just angry...cos i've heard from someone that i've been a popular conversation topic among ppl here in camerons....ppl from my school....talking ermm...not-nice-stuff about me...teasing me...ejeking me...and i'm just so tired of it...its so discouraging...and disheartaning to hear about all this....i feel like everyone is just against me...plus i feel lke i've lost my best friend (you know who you are)...and its so hard to find somene to talk to..without that person going behind my back and talking rubbish about me....siggghh....why does thing haves to be so complicated....
ohhh....errghhhhh....arrrgghhhhhhhh.......oh waetva la....i guess i just have to stand strong and not let these sorta things pull me down and make me depressed.....
i can't wait to go down to kl tomrow...hope to meet up with ppl like prissy(gurl, i miss you and hope to spend more tme with you that is if you're free la), tracy, huiyoong, and a whole bunch of ppl......really feel like i need to socialize around.....i need to be around ppl...being alone sucks big time.....